Two days ago, after I had written one of my better posts to date, I decided to go and change the way my website functioned so that I would have everything in one place.. WordPress. It was going well, and everything looked fine, and then something happened. My entire site crashed and I couldn’t get it back.
So I went to my ftp manager on Go Daddy, and tried to figure it out. The best answer (in my mind) was to copy my site history from the day before over to that day, thus putting everything back the way it had been one day earlier. I did it, and then before I realized what I was doing, I had erased the files that contained my new blog. It is gone… long gone. There is no retrieval, because silly me didn’t back up the site first. On the plus side the website (obviously) is working exactly as I had wanted.
I’m positive that all of this transpired for a reason. I had more hits, and comments on that post than on any in a year. It was heart felt, and a word from God directly to me that so many of you could relate to. That is precisely why I believe that after the comments started coming in a wild hair crossed my mind that I needed to fuddle with the controls. Like I quoted in the ‘now erased’ post:
10 Finally, my brethren, be strong in the Lord and in the power of His might. 11 Put on the whole armor of God, that you may be able to stand against the wiles of the devil. 12 For we do not wrestle against flesh and blood, but against principalities, against powers, against the rulers of the darkness of this age, against spiritual hosts of wickedness in the heavenly places. 13 Therefore take up the whole armor of God, that you may be able to withstand in the evil day, and having done all, to stand.” -Ephesians 6
Yes, I believe, and know, that it was no doing of my own that caused system failure. If there is one thing Satan despises more than anything else, it is a Christian spreading the word about Christ. He will do everything possible to put an end to it. So hopefully this post will last longer than a few hours 🙂
How applicable this is to real life, though. It seems that so often we wish we could hit the ‘re-do’ button so that all would be right in our world again. But this isn’t our world. This world is here for one purpose, to give us a chance to acknowledge that we are NOT perfect, that we ARE sinners, and that we NEED help. Without all the things that happen every day, we would just keep going on and on in our own little worlds of perfectness, never realizing that we are imperfect. That is why people get hurt, and that is why people die… to keep us mindful that we are empty, and alone inside without Him.
“11 He has made everything beautiful in its time. Also He has put eternity in their hearts, except that no one can find out the work that God does from beginning to end.” – Ecclesiastes 3
It is not for us to know the reason why things happen the way they do. It sounds so trivial, but what if the reason my other blog got erased was so that I would write this one? Maybe there is someone out there than needs to hear that God is in control and all will work for the best outcome, for His will to be done. This is something we need to be mindful of at all times. This life is not mine, it is His. The day I gave myself to Christ is the day that He began to use me to reveal Himself to others. That is my purpose now, and always.
Whether you believe that Christ died for you or not, you are part of the world in which God created. All will go according to His plan to further His will, good and bad, He will use it. For me it is comforting knowing that all of the things and stresses that happen every day are leading to something better than I can imagine. If something catastrophic happens in my life, I know that I have Christ to call on, to be with me, and to help me move forward. There is no greater shoulder to cry on than the one that willingly gave up his life for mine.
There are more times than I can count where a re-do button would have been helpful. But if I had hit it, I wouldn’t be where I am today. Acceptance of what is, and what you cannot overcome is the first step. Believe that God is here for you. Believe that a man died to give you life. If you seek Him, He will come.